the kids are doing good. Getting big and driving me nutty as each day goes by. Rea is 3 tomorrow. I am having a hell of time potty training her. I wish she would be little less stubborn. She did go on the potty tonight while we were watching TV. She was so proud of herself. Kane is taking a liking to the potty now to. :) anyways i am getting ready for bed I had a huge migraine and I had mike come home because I could no do crap and well i popped vicodin and I'm loopy right now

is going to be a slow at getting back into the normal routine we are in. I had my surgery Monday and I can honestly say those cramps sucked so bad it felt like after birth cramps after i had reagan. I never want to experiance that again.  The doctor told mike if this does not help the problem then the next and final step is to have my uterus removed. So I am crossing my fingers that this helps and I do not have to do that anytime soon because I can not stand the idea of another surgery anytime soon or even in a year. I had such a hard time after this one with being tired and being sick to my stomach. They wheeled me into the or room awake the only time I have had that happen was when I had my c/s and I wanted to freak out. i started crying the only thing that helped me was the fact that both my nurses were great the first one was  male and he was so sweet I took my bear in with me to the or (i had it when i had my galbladder removed to) and he made sure the bear stayed near me at all time. I woke up in recovery with the bear in my arms. My other nurse is highly awared obgyn nurse so that made me feel somewhat better. Anyways im just resting if i do to much i start cramping and then I get really tired. Im going to head on back over to the couch and watch the kids play

Ok I hope easter was good for you all. Mine was good we went home Friday and came back to Barstow Saturday. I bought my car 06 Toyota carolla LE. I love it I could not be any more happier with a car.  The kids hunted eggs Sunday and played with all their toys from their baskets.

School is out for spring break so mike and I have not had homework well he has I haven't until now. I go in for my surgery monday so I need to try to jump ahead as much as I possibly can because my other two classes start that day.

I had my biopsy and it sucked it felt like after birth contractions and it started making me sick the more they built up. I am still sore and the bleeding is finally going away. We got the kids back this morning im happy and thankful for my kids.

I got bad news yesterday and even worse this morning. My grandma on my dads side has lung cancer and for the past month i have knowen it was terminal i was not as close to her as I am my grammie(moms mom) but none the less i love her and that is my grandma i have lots of memories with her when i was younger. well they said two days to two weeks. My mom called at 6am to tell me she was deing. I have not heard anything since. I feel sadness I feel anger beyond anger im not sure if I should be feeling this way or not.

I decided to come back to lj for two reasons. 1. because I need a place that is mine that mike wont read when I need to vent and 2. because I had some cool friends

so an update.

I am going in tomorrow for a uterine biopsy. Since I had my c/s and tubal in July i have been having a period every 2-2 1/2 weeks lasting 9-10 sometimes 12 days well this month has been the worst I went for my apt on the Feb 22nd and i had had a period that lasted two weeks 4 days before I bleed for one day it happened again just recently. All my test came back normal but I'm still doing it. The next step after this is to have a d&c and theres a few other things last resort would be for me to go in and have everything removed which I am not mentally or physically ready for that. That closes me having any more babies 100% at least with a tubal if you find a great doctor they can reverse it

I have started going to curves and have lost 6 pounds so I'm happy about that my goal is to be 140 pounds again where i was when mike and i got married. I will reach it no matter what anyone else thinks. I am in my 3rd semester of school and so far its ok just stressed like normal

kids are doing great Kane is crawling and sitting up and standing and hes got two teeth. Reagan is learning her colors and numbers and doing well with it I'm so proud of them.

mike well hes mike he does nothing but work